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There are the days when I'm too miserable and apathetic to want to type anything, and then there are the days when I've been going nonstop for sixteen hours and I'm too exhausted and starving to want to type anything. Today was of the latter variety, and I did a lot of stuff and made some decent progress on a linoleum cut and a piece of sculpture homework. But whichever way it works out, the result is that I don't have a damned thing to say.

Maybe I'm done keeping a journal for a while. I started posting things online because of Jeremy, and then continued because I found it useful in various ways. For a while, I think it made my life more interesting, because I felt a certain obligation to go out and do stuff that would be worth writing about. But school just keeps on being school, and I don't do anything interesting, and I'm sick of the endless repetitions of how tired and frustrated and hungry I always am. I still have nightmares about Jeremy, whether I'm writing them down or not, so it doesn't particularly seem to be any good as therapy.

On the other hand, I've had these sorts of slumps before, where nothing seemed worth remembering or talking about, and where I just wanted to go into hiding. Maybe eventually I'll do something interesting again, and want to post about it.

In the meantime, I will mentally fill in all my future days with ditto marks.



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Date:January 30th, 2007 09:13 am (UTC)
We don't need your journal to be full of exciting things of excitement, we appreciate it being real.

I personally would miss you if you stopped posting. Although I can understand why you might choose to.

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Date:January 30th, 2007 06:41 pm (UTC)
Well-put. Seconded.

I know that often when I stop documenting/chronicling things, I do regret it, but that varies and your situation is different from mine. So no one's going to blame you if you do what sucks the least.
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Date:January 30th, 2007 07:15 pm (UTC)
This post, more or less, summarizes my life right now. The endless school, tiredness, and frustratedness.



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